I've gotten a lot of good resources for the wig so thanks guys. I'm definitely going to follow up on that. I do have to admit that some moments I'm so happy about doing it and sometimes its scares the crap out of me. I don't know why. its only hair and it grows back. There is just so much more behind it. Funny thing is, we've been watching Rapunzel these last few days. Serendipitous really.
We had some great moments today and some down moments. That is what they really are... just moments of pure emotion. We had some great friends come, Steph, Tobey and Addison Jenkins, to bring us coffee. The girls got to play together and had a great time.
We also had more great friends Cliff and Morgan bring us dinner. I was so tired when they got here but it was just really nice to have some "normalcy" for the moment and for the evening. My sister Auntie B surprised us with a visit as well and she pitched right in to clean the dishes. Another bag came from the Crowley's to the door filled with popcorn, movies, candy bars, and stuffed animals.
I always tried to believe that mankind is good. I've have a whole new admiration for mankind in the last few weeks. A lot had to do with the fact that I can finally possibly accept it now.
I'm reading some of the posts telling us that we are wonderful, courageous, strong parents....thank you for the compliments. But I don't feel like I am these things really. I'm just a mom trying to get my little girl through this...get my whole family through this. Its a curse to see my angelic little girl just trying to grow up and now she has to deal with this ugliness growing inside her. I saw a piece of the tumor coming out tonight. I just wanted to grab it out of her and burn it!! It made me sick to my stomach. But my saving grace is that it just doesn't bother her. I think Gabriella is the one that's wonderful, courageous, strong and brave and I know all of you think so too.
Unfortunately, we were the ones chosen for this journey.